the lump, the piercing & the old biddy

Doris: Shannon, you have your nose pierced?
Shannon: Yes Granny I do.
Doris: I'd like to get mine pierced too, but I don't want a gaudy ring in it, just a small one
Me: in my head I say I'm not taking you to get your nose pierced your 76 yrs old.....

Doris: When I go to my room I take my hearing aid out right away & turn it off..
Shannon & I look at each other perplexed... ok
Doris: That way I won't a thing from your bedroom Julie.....
We start laughing, I'm not sure what she thinks goes on in there & I'm not going to ask either. Ignorance is bliss


Doris: I'm going to take a nap.
Me: listen you old biddy, you can't nap you have to stay up.
Doris: I can't nap?
Me: nope.
Doris: Well then I like your sweater it's pretty, when are you going to give it to me? You called me an old biddy....
Me: I like this sweater you can't have it & you are an old biddy sometimes...
We start laughing together. Bonding as mother & daughter, old biddy & young
biddy.


Today Doris went for an ultrasound on her breast. She was quite subdued and quiet today, no waiting room stories to share. She has a lump & it is painful. We are fortunate to have a great doctor who listens to her (me). We will have results in a few days. About 15yrs ago She had breast cancer & had her right breast removed. Thankfully she didn't need any chemo or additional treatment. She is struggling with the thought of more cancer as any normal person would. In the last 10 yrs we as a family lost my sister, her daughter to liver cancer. I believe she was 45yrs old.  Also my dad, her husband to pancreatic cancer 9 months later.
We will patiently wait for the results & then do what ever the doctors want to do...
Today is the anniversary of dad's death, She misses him greatly & says she's glad he isn't in pain anymore. Then she gets quiet, I wonder what else is going on, what else she is thinking, Is she afraid of the pain or of dying? She says she is ready to go whenever God is ready. I think she questions why He is waiting or what is He waiting for... But she know she's ready whenever He is ready.